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“If—” Updated

20th May 2025 by philcain

Rudyard Kipling’s how-to of selfless Victorian stoicism adapted to the meet the demands of modern life. With apologies to Kipling and all those who like the original. If it’s any comfort, so do I.

“If—”
By Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son! ■

“If—” updated
By Phil Cain

If you can cling your power when all about you
Are losing hairs and blaming it on you,
If you can win reelection when many doubt you,
And profit from creating delusions too;
If you can boast and never tire of boasting,
Or smile, while spreading malicious lies,
Or don’t allow haters stop your hating,
And wage war wisdom, in genius guise.

If you can lie—and not make lying seem to matter;
If you can talk—and not make meaning an aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat both as a BIG WIN just the same;
If you can bear to hear the lies you’ve spoken
Used by enemies as an undermining tool,
Or see your words debunked, destroyed, disproven,
And still make some headlines, then, cool:

If you can make one whole heap of dough
And risk it all on the turn of a legal case,
And lose, and restart from zero, crypto
And never breathe a word to your base;
If you can convince a people with no clue
To dream of power and, beyond that, nothing,
And so destroy their dignity to defend you
With their Will saying just: ‘Kerching!’

If you can talk to crowds without autocue,
And walk like a king even when stripped bare,
If neither cronies nor foes can hurt you,
If support comes with no need to care,
If you can fill a minute in the world of socials
With sixty seconds’ of idle provocation,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And—which is more—you’ll be a Meme, my son! ■

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Hans Haacke – Retrospektive

17th May 2025 by philcain

Belvedere 21, Vienna
Until Juni 2025

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Damien Hirst, Drawings

16th May 2025 by philcain

Albertina Modern, Vienna
Until 12 October 2025

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Same time, same place

26th January 2025 by philcain

This is not the hardest puzzle ever set, but that does not stop it from offering some enjoyable insight onto our assumptions about the way the world works.

A buddhist monk sets off to reach the top of a mountain, walking up a single winding path, slowing, stopping and starting at will, before spending the night at the summit. He sets off back down the mountain at exactly the same time as he set off the day before. Can you show that at some instant during his descent he is at the same place at the same time as he was the day before?

Reveal solution

The solution offered by puzzle’s original setter, the legend of brain tease Martin Gardiner, is that we should imagine there are two monks setting off from the top and bottom of the mountain at the same time on the same day. Their journies must inevitably cross at some point and this would, naturally, have to be at the same place and at the same time. This is an extremely concise and elegant solution, but it is also hard for me to picture and why should we have to shift timeframe and imagine two monks?

It was easier for me to draw a graph of distance up the path and time, zeroed at the time the monk sets off each day (see right). If you try drawing wiggly lines between the top of the mountain and the bottom and bottom to top, you will find they have to cross. This crossing point means the monk is at the same place at the same time of day on both days.

We might also notice, using this method, that the paths can be made not to cross if we had a rogue monk who retreated below the starting point on day one until after the time he returns on day two (see left). Or he might do something similar by setting off then simply levitating above the summit on day two until after his arrival time on day one.

Allowing monks to participate who had the ability to disappear and reappear again would also mess up the argument (see right). It is not the hardest puzzle ever, but this does not stop it from asking us to question our assumptions. ■


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Direct action

23rd November 2024 by philcain

This is fiction.

Geoff had a problem, a big problem. He had been blissfully unaware of it until his partner, Steff, brought it to his attention. 

He was too wary of confrontation. He wasn’t direct enough. And this meant he didn’t sell himself and he let people walk all over him.

Her observation didn’t come from nowhere. In an ideal world Geoff would never say anything to upset anyone. Better to offer someone an awkward gesture and let them fill in the gaps.

So when Colin, the next door neighbour, parked across their driveway Geoff would knock on the front door and say, “Hi, Colin. Sorry to bother you, but do you think you could, maybe, y’know?” Letting Colin guess what he meant. 

Colin would impatiently grab his keys, marching to his car as if he were the injured party. This got the car moved with no hostile exchange – Perfect, everyone’s happy, thought Geoff.

Geoff had taken a similar approach at his interview for a promotion last Tuesday. Mike’d asked, 

“Geoff, you’ve been with us for 12 year, the last six leading the product return team. Why do you think you’re ready to move up?”

“Well, y’know, I read the job description and I think I can do it. And, well, I thought I should put myself forward, to give you an option.”

“Right. Do you think you have what it takes to coordinate product returns teams across multiple sites, maybe even working across county borders?”

“Yes, I have run my own team for 6 years and have been involved in drawing up coordination plans, some of which involved coordinating with Sheffield and even into Barnsley.”

“Excellent. And do you think you are the best man-person for the job?”

“I do feel I could do the job well, yes. But the best man-person for the job? That’s a tricky one. There are millions of men-people in the world, and also other people. Some of them are bound to be better than me in some respects, aren’t they?”

“So are you’re suggesting we should look elsewhere? Broaden our search, like?”

“Not exactly. I’m just saying that if you did, you are almost certain to find someone better than me. It’s a matter of statistics,” said Geoff, pulling his ear, one of his wide repertoire of awkward gestures.

And with that Mike sank into a moment of reflection, before wrapping up the interview.

“OK, Geoff. We’ve heard enough. We will be in touch.”

Geoff returned to his desk, feeling uncertain. But this uncertainty didn’t last long. Within an hour an email titled “Your application” landed in his inbox.

“Dear Geoff,” it said, so far so good. “Thank you for your application. After some internal discussion we have decided to broaden the scope of our search. I hope this is not a disappointment to you.”

It was, in fact, a deep disappointment to him. 

It became even more of a disappointment after he told Steff why he was pulling his ear after breakfast the next morning.

“‘You’re almost certain to find someone better!’?” Steff shrieked. “Geoff!? You’re meant to be selling yourself, not offering statistical insights.”

“I was right, though, wasn’t I?” Geoff said, shrugging.

She told him, no he wasn’t right. She also told him Colin next door wasn’t bothered about statistics and that was why he was a success and had a big car that he constantly parked across their driveway.

“Your inability to stomach confrontation explains why you are a self-sabotaging failure,” she said, slamming the door behind her, leaving Geoff thoughtfully massaging his ear lobe over his half-finished bowl of muesli.

On the other side of the door Steff leant against the doorframe. She felt awful, shocked at what she’d said. Had she gone too far? 

“No, no, it had to be said,” she thought, straightening up. “It was for Geoff’s own good. I was harsh but fair. And, anyway, what could possibly go wrong?”

Two weeks later Geoff stood in the dock of a magistrates court, blinking, not quite able to believe it.  He faced three counts of public affray, one of anti-social behaviour and one of criminal damage against a motor vehicle.

“Geoffrey Edward Winstanly Hodges, do you have anything to say in mitigation?” said the magistrate presiding over the case.

Geoff pulled his ear, shrugging and bowing his head.

“Please, Mr Hodges, might I ask you to make an audible statement, for the court record.”

“Sorry, your honour. All I can say is that I am truly sorry for the undoubted distress or damage I caused. It troubles me very much.”

He looked over to Steff in the crowd.

“I did it to prove to someone very special, and everyone else, that I am how I am normally because I believe it is the best way for me to be, not because I am afraid.” 

“I believe you have, indeed, proven your point most decisively, Mr Hodges, albeit at substantial cost. And I am sure your statement of regret will be of some small comfort to your victims. I hope you will now revert to your previous blameless pattern of behaviour. Despite this I must sentence you to two weeks of community service and issue you with a fine of £900 as a penalty for the distress you caused,” the magistrate told the court, banging his gavel. “Court dismissed.”

Geoff turned to leave the stand, looking over at Steff who looked back smiling, unable to suppress a mix of pride and excitement rising within her.  ■

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Small talk

20th September 2024 by philcain

This is fiction which came out of a cliche connected to the situation, rather than from real life.

I bundled into the back of the black cab across from the Royal Free Hospital Hamstead. It was a welcome refuge from the autumn downpour.
“Where to, mate?”
“Croydon Central, please. Let’s see if the rain stops.”
“Right you are,” the driver said, prodding his meter before pulling a slick u-turn to catch the lights.
The diesel chugged amiably as I tried to wipe the rain from my face with a soaking jacket arm. I caught the driver watching me in the rear-view mirror.
“Wet out there, ain’t it?”
“Yes,” I said. “It is.”
Some backseat yoga allowed me to dry my face with a shirt tail. That would have to do. I tracked London’s streets as they moved behind fogged windows. Then it came.
“You’ll never guess who I had in the back last week?”
After the day I had, I was hungry for the distraction. Let’s not waste it, I thought.
“OK. Sure. Was it George Clooney?”
“No.”
“Kofi Anan?”
“No.”
“Michael Palin?”
“No. Not Palin. You’ll never guess.”
“John Cleese.”
“No, none of the Pythons.”
I thought for a moment.
“Kevin Keegan?”
“No, not Keegan”
“Kriss Akabusi?”
“Chris Aka-who?”
“A 400m runner, on TV every now and then.”
“Oh, him, no, not unless I didn’t recognise him.”
“So he is at least a possibility?”
“I don’t really know him but I think I’d know if it was him, if you know what I mean.” I didn’t but kept silent. The key message was he wasn’t giving any ground. “You’re not supposed to guess, you know.”
That wasn’t going to stop me trying. I thought for a moment, his eyes searching me, grinning triumphantly. I struck back with a volley of guesses.
“Al Gore?”
“No.”
“Melinda Gates.”
“No.”
“Bill Gates.”
“No.”
“Sarah Palin?”
“No.”
“Edwina Curry?”
“No.”
“Andy Murray.”
“No.”
And, with that, I found I was spent. There were no people left in the world whose names I could think of.
“Yes, you were right. It seems I can’t guess who you had in the back of your cab last week…. Ever,” I conceded.
We were entering Kentish Town high street. I remembered buying stuff for our tiny flat over the newsagent. We argued over coat hooks and bought two of each. So much of the detail was forgotten of those times, but not the feeling of something beginning.
“You want me to tell you?”
“Pardon me?” I said, brought back into the cab.
“Do you want me to tell you who I had in the back last week?”
Oh, he was back on that again.
“I tell you what. Can we play a different game, for a change? Can you guess if I want to know who was in the back of your cab last week?”
“Alright. Yes you do?” he ventured, smiling.
“Sorry, but that’s not right. Try again.”
“I hardly need to, do I?”
“You see, you guessed. I win my bet and you win yours. Everyone’s happy. Right?”
“There’s no need to be like that,” he said, muttering under his breath and calling in to base on his radio.
I wiped a small porthole in the fogged window. Euston Station, I’d waited for her that day for three hours when she first visited. 2004, was it? Or was it ‘05? Since then she’d joined me in London, we’d married and moved south of the river and two kids had appeared. Both our father’s had died. Then a lump on her scan and within days–now, today–she had been kept in after exploratory surgery. What did this mean? Was it the end?
“See the match this weekend?” asked the taxi driver. You had to admire his persistence.
“The match? You mean a football match?”
“Yeah, the derby, Chelsea-Arsenal.”
“Guess.”
“There’s no need to be like that, mate! I’m only trying to make conversation.”
“Sorry. I know. I know it helps pass the time.”
“It helps pass the time. And take your mind off things.”
“Yes, it does. I tell you what, guess what am trying to take my mind off: shock, worry or grief?”
His eyes darted over me in the rear-view mirror for a moment.
“Grief?”
“No, not grief, not at this stage, just shock and worry.”
The cabbie nodded.
“Sorry to hear, mate. Don’t you mind me. You sit back.”
Time passed, the engine chugging dependably. I looked at my watch. The kids would be with her sister, expecting both of us.
“Where do you want dropping?”
“Just near the station, please, mate. I need a walk.”
We chugged on, the windows clearing now, the rain passing and finally stopped. We came to the station, my drop off. I paid in cash, waving away the change.
“You want a receipt?”
“No, thanks. Oh, yes, who was it?” I asked, as I pulled the handle to get out. “In your cab last week.”
“Maggie Philbin.”
“Damn it. I was gonna say her.”
“Ha. Course you were! You take care.”
“And you.”
And he pulled off and I began walking, working out what I was going to say when I got home to my sister-in-law and to the kids.
“It’s no big deal. It’s just a precaution. Everything’s going to be fine,” I whispered to myself as I walked. ■

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